look,
i am sorry that
i am breaking.

i am sorry that
i keep reminding you
with the shadows
on my face.

i tried to disappear, i did.

but winter made my cold, cold
hands feel warm again.

& look,
i know we are only
pretending.
i know my capsizing soul
is driving you insane.

my eagerness to throw myself
in front of a truck or
an airplane

doesn't impress you, doesn't
force you

to want to save me.

i guess i just need a hug

or kind eyes to look into.

no
dramatic theatrics or heartfelt
proclamations,
i guess i just need a hand to
hold onto, or

something to just make sense,
just this once.
anything at all.
you. me.

the way my cracks
are beginning to show.

because look,
i am sorry that
i am breaking.

& i am really trying
not to let you know,
ya know.

10/29/2012

Posted on 10/29/2012
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