I want to know why you are saying goodbye,
When you told me this all I could do is cry.
You packed your things and decided to go,
What I did to push you away I guess I will never know.
When you said you loved me then walked out of my life,
The pain in my heart way so bad, it was like being stabbed with a knife.
I thought that we would always be the perfect family,
I don’t know what that is like anymore since you have walked out on me.
What will I ever do without you?
I am to the point that I do not know what to do.
When you told me that you did not want me anymore,
I could not figure out what you said that for.
Now that you have left, who will take me to school?
I thought that you were the one person who would not break the Golden Rule.
I guess your only choice mom was to let dad win,
What I can’t figure out is why did you give in?
Why are you making me take either side?
I am so scared right now I just want to run and hide.
I always knew that life wouldn’t be fair,
When you walked out on me I knew that you just didn’t care.
I never thought that our family would ever fall apart,
Don’t you realize how both of you have broken my heart?
Since you have left a big part of me has died,
You both have caused me so much grief because you cheated and lied.
When I was a little girl you were my best friend,
Since you left me, you have put our friendship to an end.
When you told me good-bye you said it was a must,
I do not think you will ever be able to regain my trust.
I know that it was dad’s fault, mom, I know it was not you,
Why did you have to get divorced? Why couldn’t he be true?
I know I have lost my mother, and I will never get back my dad,
I never thought that it would it would ever get this bad.
You told me you would never leave me; you said you would never go,
I cannot forget how you said you were going to leave and I did not want it to be so.
I hate to think about having another father and mother,
When I think about it, it is like I am being smothered.
I knew that he was doing this; I knew that he was telling a lie,
When you told me that it was in my mind, I just wanted to die.
Remember when you would sing to me while I would go to sleep?
I thought that would be something that I would always be able to keep.
I wish that I could convince you to stay,
What I want to know is when will you quit running away?
If I could come to see you would you mind?
I hope that you are still as loving and kind.
When I come and see you will we have some fun that day?
Or will you be the same and just push me away?
I still love you now like I loved you back then,
When I have to choose who I love more, I know I will never win.
Right now I really want to hear you say I love you,
I don’t think I will ever get the chance to say I love you too.
Are you even going to show up for my graduation?
Or is that something that you would just do for your son?
What really hurt the most is that you chose him over me,
Do you know because of you my life is unhappy?
I just want you to know no matter what I may do,
I will never be able to forget you.
You made something to me crystal clear,
Even though I have lost you, I should never live in fear.
Where you are right now I guess I will never know,
As of this moment I am just going to let go.
I am just going to start my life over again,
To me you will always be my best friend.
Right now I am going to cut both of us some slack,
Just remember one thing, one of these days I will be back.

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10/02/2012

Posted on 10/02/2012
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