God, I cry out for you
But I feel like I am the last person you want to hear,
I need to know what I need to do to stop
Living my life in fear.
I wish that you would give me a
Sign so that I would know what to do,
At least I know that you are the one person
Who would always be true.
I need you to help me
To be able to open my eyes,
I beg you to start showing me the truth
Instead of letting the devil show me lies.
Is there some way that I can
Start trusting my heart?
Is there any chance that you and I will
Never have to part?
Somehow I feel like I am
Starting to lose my self-esteem,
Would you please let me know if
We are on the same team?
I know that I am just causing
Myself more and more stress,
I just want to get the friends and family back
That I have lost in this whole mess.
Every time that I cry out for you
I feel like you want to turn away,
Can you please tell me what I need to do
In order for you to stay?
I feel like I am losing the trust
And love that we once had,
I wish that I could figure out what I have done
To break your heart and leave you sad.
Why do I feel like you are leaving me hear
So I can feel the worst kind of pain?
Every time I don’t hear from you it
Makes me feel like I am going insane.
I guess the old saying is true about
Deserving everything you got,
Losing your love and trust is
Worse than I ever thought.
What do I need to do to be able to
Stop hiding in shame?
What can I do in order to
Be treated the same?
I need you to help me understand
Why I keep having the need to cry,
Will you please get rid of this feeling of me wanting
To give of my life and die?
When I first thought of coming to you
I didn’t think you would understand how I would feel,
Then I got to thinking that your love
For me could not be more real.
What is the reason that
You let me keep my life?
I don’t understand why you didn’t let him just
Go ahead and kill me with that knife?
When I don’t know what to do
I try to go with the flow,
Why is it when there is not an answer for everything?
I just can’t hear the words I don’t know?
How does one judge another?
And then let it slip away?
How does one help another?
So their pain will be gone by the end of the day?
If you can tell me God what can I do?
So I do not have to die,
I will try my best to quit feeling that the gift
Of my life that you gave me is nothing but a lie.

10/02/2012

Posted on 10/02/2012
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