I’m not sure I am ready to do this
To open up or let whatever this is go
To admit that maybe I am at fault
Or that I am the wrong one
So many times
So many ways
I have fallen short of
Not only what I hold myself to be
But
Of the standards you have set
In me
Or For Me
I’m broken and I am incomplete
I feel lost again and abandoned
Not by anyone or anything,
Purely in state of mind,
I’m lacking drive and the motivation
Where so many times before
Words or a melody
An elegant phrase would flow
From my mind
At the stroke of a key
Not today not for these past weeks
Not in the near future it would seem
So I’m not sure I am capable
Of writing this….
Of leaving an ending where
I can capture the true scope of what
This state of mind is or is going to be
I’ve not been here
Or known others whom have
I am isolated and discontent
And I wish it all away.
Maybe tomorrow will be better
But it will probably be the same……

07/24/2012

Posted on 07/25/2012
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