My next appointment
is on Wednesday

Maybe this chapter
in my life will end
I have followed the rules
gained weight

The wonds are no longer infected
They are not swollen
or red
or oozing
I have healed
relatively well

I have been careful
I do not want more surgery
I to be able
to resume living

I can hide my depression
I can get released
no; my neck is not straight
I cannot drive
My speech has never
been good
but I have learned to compensate

Little "Mary Sunshine"
will once again
go to Philly
....and G-d willing;
life will go back
to Normal
(whatever that is)

I do not like him
He does not like me
I can see it in his eyes
I am his failure
Doctors do not like failure

I am determined
NOT to cry
Things will be ok
I will dress appropiately

The last 8 months
have been an aboration
I need to heal- physically
...and mentally

My entire world
got a reality check
sleep has been hard
Maybe I'm afraid
I'll never wake up

I go to sleep late at night
and I'm usually up by 5 am

Wednesday is the
day I've been waiting for

If all goes right
...
I might even live

02/13/2012