i feel like an inconvenience living here,
as i walk downstairs the dogs bark
and i get an ugly look because he is on the phone
or the tv was not loud enough or
business is being conducted
and i am the biggest inconvenience when i am
not needed
but there is no hesitation when vacation time comes around
and someone must dog-sit and take care of the plants
or the mail
there is never a hesitation on who will do that,
no i am not even asked
it is a given
and i wonder how they would feel if i started barking
every time i was asked to keep the dogs,
i would bark as loud as possible, grab my keys
and leave

what would happen if i said no
to a question i am not even asked

why is everything an inconvenience for them
and a privilege for me
when all i want to do
is watch my nails become whiter and stronger
while inside me becomes soft
and my eyes turn more green every time i drink
a bottle of wine
and the only person to notice anything
lives too far away for now.

11/17/2011

Posted on 11/18/2011
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