Wonder by Erin Jonesi wonder if
when i get older
i’ll look back on my life
and be content
with the idea
that this is the only life
i’m ever going to live
with me as i am
i wonder if
when the pain stops
building upon itself
i’ll be able
to feel again
or if i’ll just continue
through this existence
right here where i am
i wonder if
when there’s too much
emotion shuts down itself
i can express myself
but only on paper
because in real life
i feel nothing in particular
all i have is tears
i wonder if
when i create for myself
an imaginary existence
that makes me
closer to happy
that imaginary existence
begins to be something
no longer imaginary
i wonder if
i’ve destroyed myself
from the inside out
to the point
of no return
if i can still save myself
or if i must simply accept
what i’ve made for myself
i wonder if
when i get older
i’ll look back on my life
and be content
with the idea
that this is the only life
i’m ever going to live
with me as i am 09/13/2011 Posted on 09/13/2011 Copyright © 2024 Erin Jones
Member Comments on this Poem |
Posted by Mo Couts on 09/14/11 at 07:04 AM This poem was particularly touching for me, as I'm asking myself all of these same questions right now and can completely relate to them. Nicely done. |
Posted by Cole Bradburn on 10/13/11 at 08:02 PM well done Erin, a great juxtaposition of uncertainty and doubt yearning for knowledge and possibly acceptance. Great write. |
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