I just diagnosed myself
with a condition
LONELINESS

I entered this world alone
I grew up alone
and
...in evidently
I will die
Alone

One day follows
the next
I don't know why
I bother
to get dressed

No one sees me
I go no place

I write to vent
it's my anti-depressant

I exist
I take up space
on this planet
I am getting older
wiser and have illusions
REGRETS? Yes- everyone does
...but you cannot go back

History would repeat itself
No one EVER said LIFE was easy
(and that is the ONLY truth I know)
LIFE does not come
with a money back
guarantee

Trust does not come easy
It is a learned reactiom
The ONLY way to not get hurt
is to not let anyone in

I'm tired
I don't want
to fight
The simple truth is
Lonliness is
...a way of life

07/16/2011