Have you ever felt
that you weren’t the one
controlling your own mind?
That you were just a guest
in the body you claimed as your own?

I woke up this morning
and it was all gone.
My world turned inside out
and reality began anew.
I suddenly realized
that everything I ever thought, felt, said, did…
it was all because of this insanity
that crawled inside my mind,
penetrating the deepest crevasses
of my consciousness.

I never realized
how horrible it really was
until I could make it go away.
Never could explain to anyone
what the issue really was
because I never knew it as different.
I never want to feel this way again.

Do you have any idea
what it feels like
to have ideas in your head
that make no sense
and you know it
but it still feels the same?

Everything I have ever experienced
has been through the eyes of insanity.
The world just dropped from beneath me.

I don’t know who I am anymore.

05/02/2011

Posted on 05/02/2011
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