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what do you have to lose?
by Ava Blu
it's tuesday but it doesn't feel like tuesday
none of the days really feel like anything anymore
the hours go by slowly, then quickly,
then it's dark and you're alone again
there's something inside us all that's waiting to be lost
but we normally don't question it
or think anything is ever really gone
the cars outside go too fast on these roads and the drivers,
they think nothing will stop them
because nothing really can
except a god most of them are only holding onto because nothing else
really makes sense
and these people, as they pass by this house
they glance towards it wondering what the people inside are doing
for a moment, they might even imagine themselves inside this house
they might even imagine being dead
i keep dreaming of fighting a panther
i am hiding on the roofs of buildings and
i jump to a new one every time the panther comes flying towards me
i wake up just as he sinks his teeth into my neck and we are falling
towards the ground
i am not the hero in this story anymore and
there is a need for one
i have lost something inside that i didn't need to lose
i don't talk to anyone,
no one hears my voice
and i don't remember the last time i answered my phone
this is who you become when nothing sacred exists
and you lose nothing that wasn't ever stolen
and i hear happy endings exist somewhere
but i haven't found them yet.
11/09/2010 Posted on 11/09/2010
Copyright © 2026 Ava Blu
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by Anita Mac on 11/09/10 at 07:48 PM What a note to contemplate... There is so much here that I feel and felt. I'm not sure if it was consciously or not, but the way you bring yourself into the grand scheme of things through the eyes of others and then back to yourself is just a very striking view. |
| Posted by V. Blake on 11/10/10 at 05:25 AM "none of the days really feel like anything anymore" You break my heart every single time. |
| Posted by Sarah Wolf on 11/14/10 at 03:09 AM I love the part about the dream... I love trying to interpret dreams... |
| Posted by JJ Johnson on 03/08/11 at 07:21 AM Interesting imagery. I can relate. You can't lose what you don't want, just the things you want to hang on to. The trick is to stop hanging onto the things you no longer want or never wanted to begin with. Next time don't let the panther catch you. There is something you need to let go of, it wants to sink its teeth in and never let go. I just let go of something I had been carrying for a long time. I feel like I need a hero everyday but never get saved. Then I look around and I can see why. Everyone needs a hero and there aren't enough to go around. They are too busy driving in a hurry to save someone else. I think the only real hero is just the hope for one. Happy endings are ice cream sundaes that melt away faster than cars going nowhere. JJ |
| Posted by Meghan Helmich on 08/22/11 at 08:14 PM "except a god most of them are only holding onto because nothing else really makes sense" - Ain't it the truth? |
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