I turned off all thought
Maybe I should have fought
But instead I felt it
My heart skipped a beat
And I knew it was over
Laying there the Man I knew was gone
I wish I could say it was all a blur
But that reprieve is not for me
I see it all so clearly
I loved you, love you still
My heart beaten, battered, bruised
When you left you took pieces of me
A chunk of my heart
Childhood memories
Pieces of who I am
Im not the same
I aged that day
Those months sitting at your bedside in the hospital
Waiting, hoping, praying
Never hearing your voice
Your witty smart ass comments about everything and anything
Your ability to make me smile after a phone call
You always knew what to say
To change my day
To turn my almost permanent frown upside down
And now you’re gone
Things will never be the same
My heart froze that day
An ice block in my chest
A numbness that never rests
I should have fought
Now I fear it will never thaw
The tears that weren’t shed while I was being “strong”
Are shed now
Everyday in your memory

10/12/2010

Posted on 10/12/2010
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