i want to know why you go for the fat girls
the ones who are ashamed to meet you
and believe you really do think they’re beautiful
the ones you have phone sex with,
exchange nude pictures
and say you can love them

but you don’t

i know not everything is about looks
but these women are not turning you on
with their plain faces
and their arms like a linebacker

you seek out the desperation in them,
feed on their weaknesses

and this is what led you to me

i listened to you say i am beautiful,
i am sexy
and i took the ring before you ever fully proposed
and i defended you to people we just met

and i am being thrown away
as you seek out the pathetic,
the women with everything to lose

i was jealous,
i looked at pictures of these women
and thought “how the hell could he want them?”

but they are writers,
artists
and i am sure you tell them how their talent makes you hard

you fell in love with my words first
and i don’t believe there was anything after

you don’t see a push as violence
but every time your hands touch me in a negative way

that is violence

and i lock myself away,
i hide my wallet
and i listen to you text with the next desperate move

those women are beautiful in some way,
i know it
but you didn’t

you never really saw them because you are forever seeing the vulnerability
and you prey on it

and i will pray for your soul.

06/03/2010

Posted on 06/03/2010
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