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by Bet Yeldem

I’m sorry, she said.
This isn’t who I was meant to be.

And I want to call Bullshit right there,
throw down my cards,
claim game over.
I’ve had a gypsy life
and lived too long; I've met
too many people in too many towns
who’ve played that line already
and if I had even a dime
for every one
I’d have enough
to buy her cliched soul.

The person in the mirror
is who we become on purpose,
and I know what she thinks she’s worth.

There are no accidental personalities,
no deep residing ghosts,
just us,
the product of our choices,
and all best intentions, dreamer’s
dreams, and well laid plans
can’t overcome
the simple truth
that who you think
you were meant to be
is maybe best forgotten,
like the kind of girl you’d fuck
by the railroad tracks
and leave behind because
she’s not the kind you walk home.
But she gets home nonetheless,
looks hard in the mirror,
and comforts herself
with the same lie
you've whispered
to yourself --

I’m sorry.
This isn’t who I meant to be.


Posted on 03/14/2010
Copyright © 2024 Bet Yeldem

Member Comments on this Poem
Posted by Joe Cramer on 03/14/10 at 04:58 PM

... an excellent write....

Posted by Julie Adams on 03/14/10 at 05:46 PM

this piece is raw and hard and gutted, and I love that sharpness in writing, that courage and daring nature...there are some real gem/Jem lines in here too ;) namely: "and if I had even a dime/ for every one/ I’d have enough/ to buy her cliched soul."--just wow! And I love ur imagery, how it is offered in a subjective honesty that cannot be denied...opening and closing with almost the same lines is powerfully circular, but between the two we have traveled miles, so their weight and the growth between them is vast! Kudos poet, this is poetry in every form! A pleasure to read you, jewels xoxox

Posted by Joan Serratelli on 03/14/10 at 07:56 PM

A VERY excellent write! I can really relate. The last stanza tied the whole piece up!

Posted by Felicia Aguilar on 03/15/10 at 02:26 AM

Damn, this is just raw and open, in your face. I love it. Love this: "like the kind of girl you’d $#%@ by the railroad tracks and leave behind because she’s not the kind you walk home" This just became a favorite.

Posted by Mo Couts on 06/28/11 at 07:54 PM

Wow...I can absolutely relate to this; fabulously done!!

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