Who
  are you
    to say
      I didn't love
you
  can't say
    straight-faced
      I didn't try
hard
  to be
    straight-laced
      now here I am
gone
  disgraced
    shit-faced
      but still alive:

How can you say I didn't try my best
to come alive with you? You held me down.
  You kept me trapped inside you
  until you tore me from you --
  so how is it you can say
    how is it you can say
      I never loved?

here
  I stand
    I rise
      I come undone
just
  to fall
    apart
      the hundredth time
flies
  I stand
    I rise
      watch me unfold
wings
  that beat
    that spread
      that block the sky
high
  I rise
    I fly
      I sing again:

How can you say I didn't try my best
to come alive with you? You held me down.
  You kept me trapped inside you
  until you tore me from you --
  so how is it you can say
    how is it you can say
      I never loved you?

      You never loved me.
      And I never loved you.

      But at least I tried.

02/01/2010

Author's Note: This was conceived (I use that term advisedly) as lyrics for a heavier, guitar driven track. The "verses" are meant to be sung exactly as they appear (quietly, almost sing-song, 1, 1/2, 1/2, 1/2/3/4, 1, 1/2, 1/2, 1/2/3/4) while the choruses are meant to be nearly yelled and done quite quickly (slowing down the further they get from the left margin). Oh, and yes -- this is admittedly one of the most emo things I have ever written, but that's ok -- I could picture myself singing this seriously even as I'm sitting here laughing about it. The rhythm came to me and the words just fell in place.

Posted on 02/01/2010
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