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uncurable

by Angela Thomas

i re-read some things i wrote years ago
and it makes me wonder if maybe all
the heartache and the heartbreak wasn't
just a preparation for this. if maybe everything

that i've been through, go through, struggle
through, was just to make me strong enough
to be able to handle my family crumbling
around me. tomorrow we start to radiate

my mother. not for a cure, because it's long
past that point, but just to make her comfortable
long enough to do what she wants to do. her mother
will bury her. her son will survive her. and yet,

i do not cry. i only feel an immense, heavy burden.
because i, i will be the one who cares for her.

01/26/2010

Posted on 01/27/2010
Copyright © 2024 Angela Thomas

Member Comments on this Poem
Posted by Michael Smith on 01/27/10 at 06:22 AM

Hey Angela, thank you for sharing this very difficult time with us. I identify greatly with this and really appreciate it. My mother passed away last month, far too young, but for entirely different reasons. I am grateful that there is some time left for you to spend with your Mom and I'm sure everyone will make them most of it. As for everything happening for a reason [prior], you betcha! You have been prepared for this and much more. Count nothing out and leave everything to faith. You do indeed have quite a large amount of responsibility now, but it is manageable, and don't be afraid to ask for help from anybody in any way. Allow the universe to help you and possibly put people in your life. Remember that everything you and your family endure is not for naught and you will become and even more amazing person as time goes on. Focus on the important things now and let the pieces fall into place. Everything else can wait until later. I hope everything I said here is considered appropriate. I am sending good thoughts your direction.

Posted by George Hoerner on 01/27/10 at 01:00 PM

It takes strenght to write as you have in this piece. We all should be willing to share our most difficult times. My thoughts are with you. I have no doubt that you are aware of hospice. My wife as a nurse has worked in that service a few times over the years. They can do a lot to help your situation. Some people do not take advantage of it or seem to feel it is admitting defeat. It is not. It is allowing the dying to die with some dignity and without pain. Take advantage of it when you need to. Take care of yourself also!

Posted by Therese Elaine on 01/27/10 at 05:56 PM

While there is obviously very little I can say that hasn't been said, and nothing I can do to change a situation that is something we all fear having to face, I will say, because sometimes it is hard to remember when you are busy being strong, that your mother is very lucky to have a daughter that has the force of will to recognize how her own personal trials can be of use to her now -in essence, you're sharing the strength of your scars with her -and that isn't only strong...it is brave. May I meet any situation I might face with half as much aplomb and grace.

Posted by V. Blake on 02/01/10 at 08:06 PM

I have no words to match the eloquence of my comment predecessors, but I share their sentiments and hope all the best for you and your family. This poem was incredibly powerful and it's not difficult to see why. Be well, Angela.

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