Lost by Erin JonesFalling apart, losing myself
Falling so hard, it must be obvious
Surprised everyone is oblivious
Just wanting to be normal again
Trying to think back to a time
Where "again" would apply
Empty, devoid of emotion
Hollow as if I'm not even alive
Feeling like this is sickening
Can't even try to make it go away
Can't dredge up the motivation
Can't even be sad about it
Crying just to feel something
Talking just to fill the void
Still empty, still just nothing
Trying so hard to grasp anything
But the world is so far out of reach
And nothing will come near me
Realizing this is what I've chosen
This is all because of me
Hoping I could make myself better
Fix myself some way I can't imagine
Hoping it would just work
Finding why I never tried before
Sinking deeper into this hole
Deeper into the emptiness in me
Where no one and nothing can help me
Helpless in the world I've created for me
Screaming at the people beyond me
Realizing too late that they can't hear me 10/11/2009 Posted on 10/12/2009 Copyright © 2024 Erin Jones
Member Comments on this Poem |
Posted by Charlie Morgan on 10/12/09 at 03:17 PM ...an echo of growth, change, arrange. you speak of what can't spoke[n]. seems sad, but i read it as more of an arm-wrestle with life; putting down these words: YOU'RE THE WINNER! |
Posted by George Hoerner on 10/12/09 at 05:59 PM Emptiness is no doubt the most difficult thing with which to deal. It can be devouring and it seems no amount of effort can chase the feeling into the distance. But the willingness to put it out before you can be a step into light. All to often we try to minimize the feeling. At least you face it head on. Really good write Erin. |
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