It's an odd mix, this feeling,
caught halfway between numb shock
and exhausted relief,
the abiding tension finally burnt out,
the resolution both dreaded and expected.

I find that even through my tears
there's a core of calm acceptance,
simply knowing that I can rest,
no longer pouring my spirit and energy
into something so draining,
so futile,
and so one-sided.

The question now is whether I can remember
how it feels to live
any other way,

how it feels to be at peace.

07/11/2009

Posted on 07/11/2009
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