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i didn't realize it would end like that*
by Lauren Singerheavy is this silent room with languor.
stacks, and stacks
and stacks of things.
a hushed and lazy squalor.
i pick at my cuticles and
stare at the embroidered ribbons
on the throw rug,
a steady stream of dust
floating through the glare.
you have fooled me again into
a mild despair that
will afflict me until i either see you
or go numb.
i am not without my pride,
and so i dally about my business and
do not hold my breath for you.
of course i waited
all day for you,
but did not clean my room
or shower because i knew you'd back out somehow,
that you wouldn't show.
when you didn't come,
i should not have let it get to me.
but i still holed up small and suffered quietly.
someday,
some stronger woman is going to
calmly go to you in the night
and rip your balls from you so fiercely
you'll see white.
when you come to,
she'll make you watch
her place them in a vice,
turning the lever tight
until they explode.
i hope she sends me a piece of one.
i'll wear it as a necklace. 06/01/2009 Author's Note: [i didn't realize it would end like that.]
Posted on 06/01/2009
Copyright © 2024 Lauren Singer
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by Anne Boulender on 06/02/09 at 01:07 AM if this is autobiographical take your power back, don't waste your youth feeling like this over guys. be the girl/woman in the 6th stanza. This guy is not going to mean anything to you in three years. Guys will try to get with stuff like this, but its up to us to put them in their place. You will lose nothing by doing so, don't be afraid to do it. The women men always pine for are the ones that don't put up with any crap, they are not the doormats. Besides these men who pull stuff like this are always pretty stupid and useless in so many facets of their life, that it cancels out any appeal they might have otherwise. It was very hard for me to leave this comment without using the sort of language that would violate TOS. Oh and by the way, for every guy that isn't in to you, there will be like five or ten who are. Another reason not to waste your time. |
| Posted by Nanette Bellman on 06/03/09 at 08:13 PM I think all woman feel like this at some point. My gosh, we're some vicious creatures. ;) |
| Posted by Anita Mac on 06/05/09 at 11:58 PM I kind of love that sudden violence out of depression. Pretty great. |
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