i know all the back roads in my hometown,
the dirt roads beckoning to be used for sex

and so we did

the moon illuminated the woods
as you realized my fear of being caught;

you played upon it
knowing it would only intensify our orgasms

we could never sleep beside each other,
always a curfew waiting
and a light inside a window that always stayed on

i wanted something better
i wanted a bed to lie in,
to be able to hear you snore next to me

but it's the same story as always,
where boy and girl are too young to know love
and too old to care about definitions

i wondered if you'd wake up one day
and realize the difference

i would cling to your arm
pretending it was just an extension of mine
(pretending we'd always be together)

this is not what i write about,
not the point of every story
about love gone wrong

a little girl lost
isn't why i did those things

nor is it why we didn't last

tonight you're beside me,
sleeping without knowing i type about this
about a life you barely know

the present blurs with the past

and i no longer know which is real.

05/26/2009

Posted on 05/27/2009
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