i find the very question of either/or...fate or chance, destiny or randomness, soulmates or compatable.....i find the answers so telling about the mentality of the person deciding. is this fate or did i make choices to get here? am i a random interger or do i have a purpose? is there meaning in this life or only what i make of it. i think the course of your life and your reaction to that course helps you to form the answer to these questions, not the other way around. are you a jaded unhappy flop of a person who just kareems through life with no plan, no options, no sense of control? are you a person who takes what the different branches of life grow him into and molds it, like topiary?

you see, its really not a question that has an answer. just like people are not really objects with solid definitions. the answer (as well as the person) vaccilates with time and circumstance. who you are now, how you view life, the choices you make might or might not be the same in...say...8 years. or even in 8 more years.
the question is really one of devotion and purpose of will. what do you WANT the answer to be? do you WANT to throw your hands up uselessly and say 'i have no say'. do you WANT to think of things in fairytale terms, thereby improving every moment, every aspect of your life, making yourself just a little happier, a little more charmed in the day to day grind? do you want to say 'this person fits me, therefore we are perfect for each other?' or 'we have crashed together in an infinate universe with millions of variables therefore the very chance of us meeting makes us special?'.....do you want to throw away that person because the course of your life has changed and you feel that you cannot change it back, forward, around? isnt that laziness? to simply state there is no way for me to change the expansion and compression of my day today life, of my mind, of my heart? there is no way for me to change my circumstances, therefore i must submit?
is it a matter of submission to the string theory-particle physics of life? or is it more a matter of the psycho-babble bullshit of life? is the glass half empty or half full. the question is: did you fill or did you empty the glass?

05/08/2009

Posted on 05/09/2009
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