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speak now or forever hold your peace
by Nanette Bellman
there are plenty of ways to crash a wedding.
i'm just thinking of the best way to do it.
looking for the perfect words to say
or actions to take.
my presence alone would be enough.
i can see security standing at every exit
and surrounding me like an entourage,
like secret service agents,
like i'm a celebrity.
i thought about just standing up at that part
where the priest says,
"speak now or forever hold your peace"
and shouting...
"you're a dumb bitch if you marry him
and you're a complete moron for letting him knock you up."
and then just leaving.
or,
i could show up late,
my last name is Bellman after all,
and reenact the scene from Say Anything.
except my boom box
would be blaring
Damien Rice's "Rootless Tree"
or some other bitter song.
the truth is though,
i'm not quite sure peace is something you can hold.
it's not really tangible.
it doesn't come in a certain shape
or size or different colors.
and i know they mean it metaphorically,
but i'm all about forgetting that idea.
too hold it inside and harbor all these feelings,
these thoughts,
these, this, that, those?
no.
i will however, go ahead and RSVP,
just to evoke them into a panic.
amen!
04/30/2009 Author's Note: don't fuck with me.
Posted on 04/30/2009
Copyright © 2025 Nanette Bellman
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by Shonda Chrissonberry on 05/01/09 at 05:51 PM STANDING OVATION!!! |
| Posted by Kris Mara on 05/01/09 at 07:37 PM I think that's a great option and plan of action! I like the path this takes, as those are where your thoughts go in cases like this (from what I'm reading here anyway -- not that this is a common situation) |
| Posted by Johnny Crimson on 05/03/09 at 08:51 PM as good as this is, and as much feeling I get out of it. I don't think it's the feeling you're expecting. I feeeeeel "Jealousy" in your writing. And I doubt you were trying to convey that. This is written so well, maybe I'm just too close to the story. :) |
| Posted by Anita Mac on 05/04/09 at 03:48 AM Love this anger! Your writing can feel like such a release, it's exhilerating... (And, not that this is the place to air such opinions, but I think pregnancy is the dumbest reason to get married.) |
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