this crazy rush
this insane crazy rush
i don't even know what to think
i don't even know what to do
i think i've lost it
i've lost every inch of my mind
and you've just thrown me
into this maddening spiral
i'm going down... down... down...
i don't even know where it leads
this isn't necessarily bad
but i don't know what to think

i'm so lost
so very, very lost
and i don't even know what to say
what do you do
when the only man
you've ever truly loved
comes back suddenly
to say he loves you
what exactly do you do
because i have no idea
i've lost the power to think
i've lost my ability to contemplate
to consider anything anymore
and he's the only one
i've ever done this for
as if i'm doing it on purpose
as if i really mean to
but i don't know what to say
i don't know what to do

i'm lost
just lost
lost inside my head
lost inside this crazy spiral
lost inside, that's all
it makes me unbelievably happy
but also unbelievably worried
because i can't imagine again
going through what i did
but i don't see a point
in stopping now
because everything i did before
was so very worth it then
and now, it's worth it again
or so i think

i'm so lost
i don't know where i am
i don't know what i'm doing here
and i don't know where to begin
this crazy rush
it's taken over me
and i don't know where to go
i don't know what to say now
and i just want to say no
because that's what my brain thinks
that i should undoubtedly do
but there's no way
that my heart is going
to just step out of the way
i loved him more than life itself
and yes, i still do
but something inside my head
keeps turning on and telling me
that this is ridiculous
its so conspicuous
he's lied before, he'll lie again
and i'm always going to consider that
i'll never forget that look in his eye
that evil, evil look
i'll never get that out of my head
but i don't even care anymore

04/06/2009

Posted on 04/07/2009
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