I can’t walk, I can’t swallow or talk; I wish I could read but I can’t even see,
I’ll never hear the sound of music, my “doting” father ruined that for me.
Doctors say I’m brain damaged, they say I’ll always be in a vegetate state,
My life will never be the same- I’m six weeks old but I just turned eight.

I have Epilepsy and severe Cerebral Palsy, doctors say that I will never heal,
I have a tube through my throat, I wont ever know what it’s like to eat a meal.
I’ll never see my father and I’ll never speak the words I long to say,
I don’t remember my mother’s face, I’ve not seen her since that fateful day.

Sometimes I wish I’d never made it, what’s a life worth if it can’t be lived?
Blind, deaf and paralysed, I don’t even have the mental ability to forgive.
I only cried because I needed comfort, maybe I was hungry, or my diaper soiled,
My needs for attention caused frustration; I made my father’s blood boil.

Confined to a wheelchair, I don’t have the physical capacity to move alone,
My life damaged, wrecked and ruined- I fell victim to “Shaken Baby Syndrome”.
I can’t participate in any activities, unlike ordinary children, I cannot play,
And when I’m ill and feeling sick, how do I let people know.. That I’m not feeling OK.

Well, father, I’m sorry that I cried and that I needed you that night,
But your frustrations nearly killed me, you should have known it wasn’t right-
To shake a baby the way you did me, you caused me pain, torturous harm,
When all I needed, father - was to be loved and held in your arms.

04/05/2009

Author's Note: Wasn't sure which category to put this into - so chose the "Sad" option.

Posted on 04/05/2009
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