Cold Betrayal by Brian Fuchson being stranded in Alaska
January had been full of
animal dinners and parties
when sadness was setting in
and Lori left suddenly after
and exchange of anger-charged words
I was lost during those cold weeks
that followed and couldn't keep up
Life rushed by and stood still
I know about the carefully discarded
cigarette butts in bottles of soda
and the mornings of coffee and romance
empty mornings and safe
I had days when I didn't eat
that spring and the cheap dinners
of tasteless noodles seemed
heavenly after
The pain doesn't last and Justin
stayed with me until I wasn't unhappy
anymore which was a long time
Then he went home to his life and
left me to forge my new life from
this strange place
Sometimes I want to forget Lori's face
but I keep getting it stuck in my head
I had a dream with hundreds of hens
flocking around me and
they all screamed Lori's name
and I realized that I still love her
despite not being able to hold on enough
to keep her near me
I am floating above this frozen place
this city of refugees lumped together
from many corners of other places
I don't care anymore about knowing about the
coffee and the cigarettes and the novels
it doesn't matter that people are happy when
I can't decide what would make me happy
but I wish the hens would stop reminding me
4.2.2007 04/02/2007 Posted on 02/20/2009 Copyright © 2024 Brian Fuchs
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