it’s difficult staying miserable
when the light shines so fucking bright
when you’re around

I try to cry,
to let the emotions implode
and explode around people,
but you keep the flames hidden
and the well keeps drying up

I want to be lonely,
don’t you get it?

at least I always thought I did

but it seems that isn’t the case
and I’ve run out of excuses for
running away

like the ball and chain around my heart,
I’m going to drag myself back up from the ground

I’m going to stop worrying about what you think of me
and just accept how this feels

because I knew that one day
something would make sense
and somehow those wishes on every first two stars
would finally pay out.

02/17/2009

Author's Note:
don't take it the wrong way, this is actually a happy poem

love isn't a two-way street, it's more like a one-way street with lots of places to yield and wait for the lights to turn green. and sometimes, just sometimes, you're lucky enough to have someone riding the same one-way street.

Posted on 02/18/2009
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