racing heart as I discussed music with the driver on the way to the hotel
I was glad to have a few hours to relax,
to spend on looking as beautiful as I do in pictures

I ate at the bar
and checked my phone as it grew closer and closer to night

I could have sent you 20 texts

I wanted you to kiss me
as soon as we met
I wanted your arms around me

I kept trying to think of ways to get closer to you,
romantic moments you wouldn’t be able to resist

when we walked in the snow, I was silly
and at peace
and home

I would have kissed you
if it weren’t for fear of rejection

your eyes were full of promise,
full of tranquility
though I know those are things you struggle with

the waves of the ocean rolling around your head,
I could see the horizon in those eyes

I still can

and when we kissed,
I knew it would be difficult to not come back
as often as possible

this is what I thought
this is why I will keep coming back.

01/31/2009

Posted on 01/31/2009
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