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just days before i turned 25
by Nanette Bellmanthe speed limit on 77 is 77.
that's the least of my worries.
and it's certainly not the cause
of this panic attack.
it's the realization of reality
that's smacking me in the face.
in 5 years, i'll be 30.
i'm not married, not divorced.
i have no children.
i have no children.
i have no children.
i may have no children.
and i always thought,
that i'd never be 25
panicking at time.
over a tick tock of an internal clock.
it was always
"either way, that's great. that's fine."
that's a lie.
i'm not fine.
i'm not okay.
i'm not okay with this.
i've lost my remote
and i'm stuck on fast forward.
but rewind.
rewind is just as broken as i am.
inside and out. 12/18/2008 Posted on 12/18/2008
Copyright © 2024 Nanette Bellman
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by Shonda Creemer on 12/19/08 at 02:30 AM And 9 years later...I still seem to be waiting. This really spoke to me. |
| Posted by Johnny Crimson on 12/21/08 at 06:37 AM .."the realization of reality" wow, this speaks volumes! Good work and it really is just days before I turn 25 as well. Odd. |
| Posted by Mo Couts on 08/26/11 at 06:02 PM Stanza 3...yeah. Spoke volumes to me and even though I've not had this experience in particular, I have had many that make that stanza so real and touching to me. Wow, Nan, just wow. |
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