I’m drowning
Oh god someone save me
Someone pull me out this mess I've put my self into
Gasping for air
Light fading around me
I am slowly going numb
Oh god please someone
"I don’t want to sink into the abyss"
I sink farther and father
I don't want to be alone on the cold black floor
I sink, I hit the dark bottom
I think I’m safe here
I think i finally hit the end
alone
cold
And then theres light
and i fall,
I try to reach out for someone to help me
I don’t want to fall to my death
So I don’t fall to far from grace
Falling farther and farther
Falling through past memories
Screaming at me like at the movies
surround blasting in my ears
Watching my own life play before my eyes
I see sadness
Explosions on the TV
Drugs in dad’s hand
Bruises on mom
Me in the mirror with a fucked up face
Thinking
Thinking
Thinking
Am i to blame?
I fast forward through years
I see happiness
A real smile on my face
Laughter amongst my friends
A beer in my hand
A cigarette between my lips
The first time I felt love
And what a true listener can be
To feel accepted for the first time
Not to feel so alone in my life.
I was so naive to think it could all last.
I now see depression
The thoughts of suicide
The makeshift noose
Hanging in my closet
The bottle of bleach in front of me
And a tub full of water
I take the tub
Now I’m drowning
Drowning
Drowning...

10/04/2008

Author's Note: i was having a horible time in my life so here is what happened

Posted on 10/04/2008
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