if it were as easy as you think...i'd give you a life.

and then i'd feel complete.

this isn't just about you.  and how nice it would be for you. 

this is about me.

i wish you could know how broken i am.  what it feels like to be broken.  i wish you could walk the miles in these shoes. 

live with this void of what will never be.

if i could blink my eyes or wiggle my nose or nod my head and give you life i would.  but ( i could + i would =  i can't) 

 i can't give you a life.  i can't give me a life.  i can't make a life in this life. 

and dr. phil ain't here asking, "how does that make you feel?"

no one is asking. no one has ever asked. 

and i'm all alone.  all by myself.  just to swallow this spoonful of life.  to go all in on a hand that is nothing.

this life that isn't, the life that will never be, means more to me then you could ever know.

04/03/2007

Posted on 09/22/2008
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