I'm so alone here
And I'm dealing with this constant fear
And I keep trying
But nothing I'm doing is working
It's still not over
And nothing will ever be the same

The loneliness hasn't subsided
I'm not adjusting any better
I'm trying so hard and I'm failing
I'm so lost no matter where I go
I wonder how long it's gonna last
Everything is so different now

I'm trying so hard to be normal
But I'm realizing I'm failing
'Cause I will never even come close
I've known this is true for a while now
But nevertheless I try again
Hoping for impossible success

This constant loneliness
Doesn't even compare
To the blatant emptiness
That hangs over me everywhere
This must be what it feels like
To be finally growing up

09/08/2008

Author's Note: First poem in a while... Not sure if I like the way it's organized yet...

Posted on 09/09/2008
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