it is impossible for me to find
solace here, even the stars no longer
find it comforting to stay still enough
for me to sleep or keep
from thinking

what could have been and
what should have been is never what is

and i'm finding it harder to live with that.

& i walk in circles because i am tired of
having no direction and tired of
being

tired so,

i walk in circles to keep from feeling like
i should satisfy you as if that could ever mean
something and forgive me again and again

it still doesn't make any sense to me

i will no longer pretend to know what day of
the month it is or the time, only that i was
always his, he



was never mine.

07/25/2008

Posted on 07/25/2008
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