I don't find myself remembering anything too fondly
a past i can't escape people i can't erase from
memories that will not let me sleep i think
i'm too far gone for you to come find me

maybe

and it was a dream or it was a nightmare
& you were there but then
you
just
weren't

and I was never much for happy endings but
maybe just this once

you cannot imagine how numb I've truly
become climbing out of situations that were
built to bruise and i lose & lose & lose
but you

always win in the end

and when I tell them i still love you they
laugh in my face & when i drink these days
i'm all over the place you cannot even grasp
the mistakes that i make or the chances i
take not having you beside me to remind me

to keep still

safe

but i was never that safe with you was i
and it's the end but i can't accept what i
cannot put a finger on you were wrong

and i still love you i still love you

and when i tell them i still love you they
laugh in my face & when i wake up these days

i'm all over the place.

06/12/2008

Posted on 06/12/2008
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