spring & i am here
with enough excuses to last
through summer
finding ways around the day
looking for a space to fill
where i am wanted or atleast
recognized

i close my eyes

& i know that time heals
everything and that i can
find a replacement for the one
with the stranger's eyes if i
really tried & i will

try

but for now i am sitting with
my memories, even those we hadn't
had time to create this wasn't
my mistake who can fault me for
being lonely who can say that i
deserved his going away

and actually mean it

he was so cruel and so beautiful
i was only forgiving & when i touched
his face i did it with my whole being
trying to memorize all of the lines
yet now here we are

completely disconnected

& everyone told me how it would end
that i would break, that he would never
bend to my need to keep him safe, that
i was only a pulse with female parts
that this was nothing new to him that

i was nothing new to him...




spring & i am here
with enough excuses to last
through summer
finding ways around the day
looking for a space to fill
where i am wanted or atleast
recognized

i close my eyes

04/14/2008

Posted on 04/14/2008
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