I cannot gather my thoughts about my writing, thus having lost faith in it I must write about it.  I try to group words together to sound elegant or with double meanings but all this overthinking and effort just leads me down a path of nothing written.  When I think of faith I automatically think of religion, and that of course is a whole other ball of string.  Faith is a name.  Faith is in many movie titles.  Faith is the names of many things from rock bands to children to adults to things as simple as rocks.  I suppose the energy placed into anything is good assuming it is positive, and faith is no exception.  If you have faith in yourself, that's good.  Unless you have it for your ability on robbing the local bank.  Too much of anything good or bad, is bad...ie two wrongs don't make a right and two Wrights make an airplane.  Okay, anyway, bad joke yes.  Having too much faith in yourself leading you blindly into something you are not able to do is bad.  But then again, who says you can't do anything, unless that thing to be done includes flying without the help of anything other than your arms, for example.  What happens when you have faith in someone or something that is bad that you once thought was good and turns out to be bad?  Can you lose the ability to have faith?  Does just giving up really mean you give up on faith for anything?  Or is that hope?  Is "faith" as a word either so powerful or so vague that it cannot be defeated, as if it got hold of this knowledge of its own power and had tremendous faith in itself, could it ever be defeated?  I am sure I could look up the definition of faith and research it and find more concrete answers, but in the long run this is an exercise after all, I just want to get my skills back to working order so I can pump out some words like a factory and enjoy my writing again, instead of adding it to the frustration list.  Supposing I had more faith in myself would help, but after a while you learn what you can and can't do with high regard so changing these seeming facts would be self-destructive and serious motions of living on the contrary of what you already know yourself to be.  So this is an example of how my mind works, and I could continue this, but what would be the point?  Oh, wait, what about conflicting faiths?  Two people believe in themselves or their Gods or their own abilities and yet only one truth or acheiver can be claimed.  Where does faith account for conflicts of living things?  Do plants have faith?  Do mother lions have faith that their lost cubs will come back or even find their way back?  Or would that faith be placed upon natural order?  Would a lion "pray" to the sky for a safe return?  Is it too far-fetched to give that much personification to an animal?  Do I place too much faith into the animal kingdom and its members?  Can we even have faith in humanity, with all its evil?  Faithful is a way of living honestly and to a point even demanding of respect.  You can be full of faith without being religious.  The opposite is true as well, just don't tell Job.  So faith is a powerfully charged and general word that is just another example that language cannot quite articulate the finer feelings and emotions that all things contain, whether expressed or not.

03/07/2008

Posted on 03/07/2008
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