you know

it isn't too late to turn back the sun will not
be here for another hour and i've so many
other places i could be

but

maybe i've just been too honest when lies
were what we needed and maybe i am
just like my mother

half of a person, depressed and angry about
all the things i cannot change and maybe,
just maybe i am like my father and i don't
need you to make sense or to love me

maybe i don't need you to leave to make
myself feel better by feeling worse

alone
used
neglected

quite possibly i've already brought these
to the table or the bed
i suppose

& i suppose that maybe i am just like
someone else entirely and you are
nothing more than a dream or a nightmare

depending on which way you choose to see it

i choose life which is completely uncalled for

but

there's death in your eyes tonight, my love
and the sun will not be here for another hour

01/31/2008

Author's Note: hmmm

Posted on 02/01/2008
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