In the past
I have turned
from left to right
and back again,
over and over,
looking for sleep...

never knowing which side I would find it on.

After you,
I slept soundly on my left side
on the right side of the bed.
Knowing that you were behind me
gave me comfort.

And knowing that in middle of the night I could
turn over
and reach for you
and pull you into my arms-
all while sleeping…
made me happy.

Finding you in my sleep gave me no need to worry,
no need to wake.

But somehow I have lost you
now,
you’re not at my back;
you’re nowhere to be found
in my sleep.

I have to think that it has more to do with just the distance
we have between us
right now...
or maybe it is all distance,
but not the physical kind.

So…
I’m back to turning
from right to left
and back again,
over and over,
looking for sleep...

I’m left wondering
in my turning-
where did it go?
What happened to my comfort?

Will I ever be able to find you in my sleep again?

01/27/2008

Posted on 01/27/2008
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