It’s always been you.

Life can lead us to places we never thought existed.
Dreaming of a fairy tale life
Drenched in song birds and butterflies.
It’s a harsh reality and
When they tell you “life ain’t no joke,”
They failed to tell you
It’s a miserable reality based on choices.

I’ve always felt a connection with you.
I can’t explain what it is.

I’ve come to this conclusion
that this is my life.
This is what I choose for me.
At one point this is exactly what I wanted.
We all make choices we have to live by.
So I’m living.

My mind wanders to you over and over again.
To hold your hand
To kiss your lips
To see myself reflected in your honey kissed eyes.
Enveloped in you. . . consuming your thoughts.

The sole responsibility lies within me.
I knew from the beginning this wasn’t for me.
But, I continued portraying
A loving foundation for a lasting marriage.
I could make it work in the years to come.
Such a fool!

Your alluring soul captivates me.
Importunate demands pounding at my heart.
Meanwhile, my mind agrees.
Move on.
There’s still time.
Time to regain
What’s rightfully mine.
What has never abandoned my being. . .

A fool for thinking that this would work.
Silently
Passionately
I give you hints.
I show you what I need.
I give you suggestions.
You don’t get it.
I’m too afraid to be honest.
So I settle.
On with the next day.

You’ve never left me.
I need to be one with you.
But alas,
Somethings are meant for dreams.
And in my dreams

It’s always been you.

12/05/2007

Posted on 12/06/2007
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