So here I am again

Caught up in this whirlwind

Of lies and deceit

And what you mean to me..

I've been down this path before

I'm just too blind to see

The things that I felt existed

Are Still right in front of me

This tender heart was broken

With the hateful words we've spoken

And now I see the truth

It was hidden deep within you

I know now who you are

And the places that you've gone

I know now how you hated

Spending time alone

I missed you for so long

But that was long ago

I've moved on with my life

As have you, though...

I miss the days we spent

Laughing and talking like friends

Spending our days

Lazing away

Loving one another

Never knowing

The things that were to come

And now I'm unraveling

I'm coming undone

I'm sorry that It took

So long to realize

That it was never you

I tried to despise

It was only myself

And the perfection

That I could never give

So that we could always live

In happiness together

Through the hard times

We had to weather...

Can't believe it's come down to this

So many years lost

The forgotten bliss

The ignorance

Of your first true love

And all the things you'd given up

Just to feel him on your lips

With one arm around your hip

As he leads you onward safely

And all the meanwhile

You take for granted

The things you've never had

It was never quite as bad

As it seems

It's just me

I hate to think that this life

Can never remain what It seems

Because, It seems to me

There are some things

That I need to tell you now

Like I'm sorry how

Things went down..

And I miss you as a friend

I wish we could start again

Because you were always there for me

When no one else could see

The hurt I hid behind my eyes..

But you saw right through me

You were the only person who really knew me

And they say that some things never change

But I refuse to believe that

I'll keep throwing this away

But knowing me...

I'll probably.....

Never change

I can't rearrange

Who I am

To fit your needs

And I hope you can see

That I'm sorry

For everything I've ever said

For all the things

That went to your head...

Or the things that were taken wrong

I never meant it

It was me all along...

Just throwing it all away

Now there's nothing left to say...

I hope you're happy today

With someone who won't regret it

Won't throw it all away

And I wish for you only the best

From the things that we've been through

To the being through itself

I've found someone new

He isn't you

No one could ever be

The you I know

From the real me..

So Take a look at me here

I think things are becoming

Clearer...

We knew it would end this way

And in one month

I would have been walking down an aisle to a beat

And you would have stared at me

But fate had different plans

And I found a different man

Who treats me like gold

Never leaving me alone

To fend for myself

In this sick twisted world

That we are both a part of..

But I am sorry

For throwing it all away

I don't regret the things we shared

Nor do I regret the past

The only thing I do regret

Is an 8 year friendship that never had the chance

to last...

09/21/2006