I have lost my way. someplace
between the exclamation mark of
dissension and the comma of my
mouth lies the path I was longing
to take. yet my footsteps only
fade away.
nameless, the tides that
swing behind my eyes, a
mirror with no reflection.
soundless spring, aching,
a release that will never
come. these bloomless buds
are only what they are.

beneath all this I have stumbled
with burdens that I cannot carry,
words that you have asked of
me. how many times have I
broken my teeth against the
letters that form your name?

i have not forgiven these sins.

and these days, a river sprung
from the dying autumn earth.
ever rushing on only to
return once i have turned away,
silent waves rising. skin drenched
in surprise and fear.

still - always just a vague
unhappiness crawling in
the moondark hollows of
my heart. never more than
a wisp, a whisper, a wish
not spoken and near forgotten.

& all these fallen petals
an elegy for the sun

10/20/2003

Posted on 10/20/2007
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