You are someone I could never forget

Even though you’re the one I swore I’d regret

You are the one who crosses my mind each night

While I remember every laugh, every fight

You are the boy who first stole my heart

We used to say that no one could tear us apart

And yet here we are

And love between us has far gone away

There’s nothing left for me to say

Though I want to say, everything

I read your letters on occasion

Remembering a time that was so difficult

And yet it brought us together, so much

I look at the photos, of the life we shared together

The dogs, the cats, the chinchillas, the mice

The walks, the talks, the Pepsi machines at night

Family vacations, graduations, you’ve always been by me

So here it seems, time’s passed us by…and ‘us’ is a thing, long forgotten

Internet fights, up all nights, burning dinner, but trying so hard

Working on cars, emotional scars, everything teenage romance is about

The tears I cried, the times I lied, and every hurtful word in between

Remembering the good times, trying to forget the bad

No one could ever, forget what we had

We were talked about, stalked while out, everybody’s tabloid dream

But to us, it was just you and me..

Everyone was interested, no one had a clue

Everything they knew, was a lie….

Wasn’t it apparent that the love we shared was of a hateful kind

The broken glass, broken hearts, broken flesh…broken spirits

I tried too long to please you…and if only momentarily, I loved to see you smile

Until of course it all started again…

Three a.m. phone calls, parents awakened, people worried over split veins..

We lied to them, and ourselves

What we had was passionate, it was love…

But then, we let it die.

People don’t realize that you were my first true love…

Not puppy love

Not kiddy love

Not teenage love

To this day, you have enough of me, to tear me down with just a look…

That is all it would take

Turn to me…look at me…smile at me…and my knees would buckle, tears would fall

I wouldn’t know what to do

I would be happy knowing that I crossed your mind, if only for a second

But then I remember, what we went through…

The ups, the downs, the all around…

The pills, the thrills, the late night screaming

The couch, the floor, separately dreaming

Nightmares ensued, there I was holding you

And for a moment again, the world was right.

I ran away from you, to find what was true

In my heart

And while I was gone, I realized it

You were my everything, and I was your nothing

I let you go, and you found love again….quickly this time

So many years of my life were spent with you

No one could ever understand what it is I feel

It’s not love, or hate, or any reasonable emotion

Its happiness, sadness, sweetness, and sorrow

Waking up each day, living for tomorrow

All because you never gave up

You pushed me, you pulled me, you dragged me along

You hurt me, I hurt myself…and here I am today, going strong

Your ethics weren’t commendable

Your technique was quite insane

But you are one of the sole reasons

I’m breathing today…

From jr high looks

To high school French books

From study hall talks

To summer eve walks

From the fight on the night, that you proposed to me

To dreaming of everything, I ever thought we would be

From your mothers basement

To a home all our own

From being together

To being alone…

We shared some fond memories

And that is something everyone could see

And I only wish I knew

If ever you thought of me

07/10/2006