There are so many things I forgot to say
Like how I'm such an idiot
-For walking away

There are many memories
I'd forgotten with time
-And they choose now to come flooding back?

The nights of wet cheeks, and wasted tears are over
But I won't lie
-I miss you

Everyone...
Everyone tells me how stupid I am for hoping
-One day, things will be right again

The ring I wore on my finger is no more
Every time I look down at my now naked hand
-I die a little more inside

I can't help but remember
The happiness we once shared
-Those memories drown out the bad

I was selfish and lazy
I was immature and young
-All I ever wanted was to make you happy

I chose to move away from the home we once shared
The memories were too vivid within the cracked walls
-I miss that

You gave me the one thing I wanted
Promising me the world
-But, Promises break, love fades, and in the end there's always one regret

To this day I lie awake
Wondering what you're doing
-Remembering...

I can't help but smile
When I think of the days
-Before us

When it was just you and me
Lost in a world all our own
-Best friends

Sitting in school
We didn't learn a thing..
-disruption!

Years passing us by
Loving you from afar
-Do you remember?

Late night phone calls
Dying grasshoppers, grandma's gift of cologne
-My 16th Birthday party...and two wet dollar bills

I drove in a blizzard to see you
Watching movies, eating snickers
-After swimming you hid my bra inside your freezer

Internet talks
Finally, I called
-We danced that night away

New years eve
You lying next to me
-Oh The things we didn't know

Passionate love
Years of lust bottled up
-I loved that

Going home alone
Uncertainty, Sincerity
-Hoping that night I hadn't make a mistake

Never certain
Still too Afraid to ask
-Your humor amazed me

Family troubles
Late night cries
-A new home lying in your arms

Short lived dreams
Awkward moments
-You were ripped away to serve us

2 long months, 3 new homes
And a few run in's with the cops, later
-You got to come home, and no longer was I alone

Shitty jobs for minimum wage
Full time school, longer days
-They meant nothing if I wasn't with you

Dentist appointments
Dr pepper with straws
-You always looked out for me

18th birthdays
Rides home from school
-I loved you even more

First fights and first nights
of passionate love, making up
-Those days are past us now

Lounging around
Sleeping on the couch
-You held me so close

Lost memories, lost love
Faded thoughts, faded feelings
-All a part of something, I didn't ask for

Late night fights
Over internet rights
-We were losing each other then

Never alone
Sharing a home
-Adjusting to life as one

Years went by
At night I'd cry
-I never saw the things I see now

My eyes were blocked by confusion
My heart was aching with uncertainties
-I should have left well enough alone

The day you lay that ring upon my left hand
I knew that I could never marry any other man
-And I can't

You promised me the world
And delivered me the moon
-I was never satisfied

Hours of screaming
Night of packing, running away
-I'm so sorry

The love of my brothers
The trust of my mother
-She always told you to take care of me

Misunderstandings, fabrications and lies
Holes in the walls, tears in my eyes
-And for what? All for nothing...

Six months ago
It was time for me to go
-I was In search of who I really was

Lost and confused
Feeling broken and abused
-I returned home to you

Valentines had passed
Our second year apart
-Still, you'd done so much

In the room I stepped
And into your arms I followed
-The table filled with loving momentos

I missed you while I was away
Even through all the tears and the fighting
-I guess I should have stayed home

No longer was I unclear of what I wanted
I knew now who I was
-I was petrified

4 months until our wedding
Time held no concept anymore
-I was scared

I had to let it go
I told you no
-And I ran again

Now there you are with her
Making new memories to replace ours
-It breaks me

You let her kiss linger
You've got a ring on her finger
-And it's only been six months since I left

You came back for a while
I got you to smile
-We were happy again

Until a week in
I slipped up again
-I told you to go

Never imagined you'd actually listen
That is so unlike you
-But here we are, and you're gone

It hurts me now, every single day
To see that I was so easily replaced
As if I never meant a thing
-Was I just another ring

Now you want to settle down
And here I am, no longer around
Sitting here wondering where you are
-Regretting the things I said before

I'm wishing you were by my side
And that all this pain would just subside
I'm wondering why I still see your face every time
-I close my eyes

My reality doesn't seem real
My fantasy doesn't come true
-You aren't here with me

I miss the late night talks
The summer barefoot walks
And all the things that fell between
-I just miss, you and me.

07/28/2005