Remembrance

Behind your false blue eyes
How can you say It Is I you despise?
You-
Who made me cry every night
You-
Who blamed me for every fight.
You-
Who never would take the blame
Then It was I-
Who had to feel the pain
I was sick of your lies
The pain
The bruises that never would
Go away
The marks you left on my heart
As my mind was falling apart
Blaming me
For being Crazy
Saying it was all my fault
Cursing the things
That I was not...
Now the times have come and gone
I am facing this world on my own
You draw your conclusions
You live your life
Questioning what could have been
Had I become your wife
I hate the remembrance
Of the things we became
Knowing that what once was a friendship
Will never be the same
I see you now
For the person you are
When you were with me
And when you were without
I will never understand who your are
I will never know what might have been
And I'm happy to admit that
I don't mind...
Because I found someone I want to be with
Someone who makes me happy
I've found a person who makes me smile
Takes my hand, and wipes away the tears
Even when he causes them
He admits to me his faults
He doesn't fear his wrongs
He knows that no matter what
I'll love him all along...
So had you never done to me
The things that we never speak of
I would have never found
The person that I do love
In some twisted, demented way
The things that happened between us
Were nothing but a blessing
In disguise
Between the screaming, and the fights
The violence, and the lies
The people that we'd never trust
And the people that never trusted us...
The friendship we destroyed
The love we'll never share
Was all just a stepping stone
To get me to where
I needed to be
So here by me now
There is someone new
Who isn't you
And I love him
I'm sorry

07/09/2006