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Last Days
by Alisa JsI find myself wondering how your last days must have been
alone in your room without us,
no familiar faces to gaze upon
or voices to encourage,
no hugs from loved ones
just stark white, sanitized
with only the occasional nurse when making her rounds ...
I read your hospital records after your death
the words written tore into my soul,
pulled out my heart at what I saw,
accounts of ringing in your ears, incessantly
yet, nothing was done
only notes to document and record
what a God awful hell ...
we were too young
too far away
to do anything, even if we knew
did you think of us as you lay there dying?
call out our names,
wonder where we'd gone
was there anyone there for you
I'll never know,
as no one ever said ...
I miss you, Daddy
always will 10/05/2007 Author's Note: My father was hospitalized for almost six months before his death. My brothers and I were very young and came to live with my mother in Hawaii. No one told us anything until after he died, by then, it was too late.
Posted on 10/05/2007
Copyright © 2024 Alisa Js
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by A. Paige White on 10/07/07 at 12:04 AM Wow, Alisa. This is a heart wringing write. I got to take care of my dad as he died of melanoma. He went from hale and hardy to gone in three months. It was so fast after his diagnosis. He got his final wish to die at home though, thanks to hospice. I am so glad I got to try to ease his passing as much as any human can. Bless your heart. |
| Posted by Michelle Angelini on 10/09/07 at 03:56 AM Alisa, in some respects you've echoed my feelings about my mother. No, the circumstances aren't the same but the feelings, even nearly 2 years after her death, still stab my heart with pain. Somehow, I think your father knew how much you loved him. And, just like I know with my mother, your father is watching over you from his place in heaven. You've written such a sensitive, loving poem.
~Chelle~ |
| Posted by Steve Baba on 12/14/08 at 03:07 AM Very emotional and to the core of the soul poem. I can relate as this reminded me of my grandpa. I really loved this poem... |
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