so i eat my cereal dry
with my hands
because im always losing spoons
i may rip my pop tart apart
maybe its because i only eat the brown cinnamin sugar ones
who really knows

so i dont say how i feel
because i know no one ever feels the same
and who cares that i just dont want to get hurt

so i tear paper into as many pieces as possible
its not sexual frustration
its just me
why is that so hard to believe

and maybe i drink too much
or say things i mean
maybe i never meant to hurt you

maybe im never really there when i fuck you
i just close my eyes and disappear
its not like you want to know what im thinking anyway

and okay maybe i always back off after a few dates
stop returning your calls
make up excuses
maybe im running away from myself

and maybe
when it comes down to it
there really is no maybe
no wonder you could never love me

08/22/2007

Author's Note: its official. ive lost all ability to write.

Posted on 08/22/2007
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