indiscriminate meanderings
insignificant at best,
on that cold day in June way back when
before all the ruckus
fell to the forefront
of this madness we now find ourselves in ...

tarry a spell, won't ya'
sit back and relax like we used to for hours
days without end,
no thought for tomorrow as tomorrow never came ...

have I lost any standing
apparently, yes
I am lonely here without you and your smile,
like we once knew
like I grew accustomed to ...

sadly, I watch from the sidelines, unseen
curiously absent any acknowledgement
I was ever aware, ever there
ever a part of your life
now, without meaning, I sit
and wait for nothing as nothing is there ...

a lucid dream I once believed in
oh! how those pathways become tainted,
door bells been changed
directions misplaced or forgotten,
left alone in this misery that exists
for no other reason than happenstance
circumstance,
deliverance
no longer mine to achieve or discuss ..

and I'm left bewildered and flushed
trying in vain to make some sense of it all
maybe, just maybe, my time has passed
thrown out to pasture along with the rest
of my reckless ambition at best,
colors have faded
jaded,
it's all black and white ...

I have lost the light of your excellence
left in the dust
grasping,
shattered remains cry out, but to no avail
as there's no one to listen,
no hand to hold in the dark
I am lost in this nightmare
of juncture and utter despair ...

I can no longer pretend it doesn't matter
doesn't hurt,
or cut to the core of all I once knew
and believed in,
the beauty of me and you
gone like the stale winds of yesterday's dementia
vanished,
like hope in this rain ...

08/08/2007

Posted on 08/08/2007
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