I am a tough person to love.
I realize this.
A strong, opinionated man
with his own opinions
is a dangerous thing
so when I come on strong
I sometimes don't know
how to turn it off
and then emotions get involved
with saying what my mind
really isn't thinking
and I am just so frustrated
with the course of my life
that I have always felt
as if trapped in a cage
a cage so large I can't
even fathom its size
though the cage is me
and I have been wanting
to get out of myself
and become that person
maybe of the future
maybe of destiny
but please make it happen
the sooner the better
because I am going crazy
inside my past
inside my mind
that cannot stop fighting
in a fight it doesn't
really know what
is all about anymore.

07/28/2007

Author's Note: I was always hard on myself, but maybe this is more self-realization than anything. I really can be such a butthead sometimes. Why am I so important? Oh yeah, I'm not.

Posted on 07/28/2007
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