pod's poem by Paul Marino
sarah's dad leans & recalls
his crazy ex-wife. i am high,
sitting next to his daughter. i want
to understand him. i am me
for the first time in forever. it's just
what i am. the whole time, high,
arms behind my head, i shake
& nod when conversation
doesn't call for response.
there are things i haven't
learned: how to be comfortable
in my body & how
to love. tonight i listen.
i understand why sarah crawled
to me earlier on the couch, dug
her sweet head into my chest
& said: i need you
to love me. her mom
snuggled her every night
till age seven. i finally know why
she gets nervous
& needs to drink
when we're out. she's never
had a childhood friend
because her mother moved
them so often. i connect
with her father because he
is just a guy--as naive
as i am. he has fallen,
done things without thinking
as i have with other girls. we are
boys getting laid & falling
in love, trusting & horny,
the male experience. it isn't
his fault he had to leave. he is
driven away, he doesn't do
the driving. at the end
of the night pod & i are left
in the room. i know i don't
have to say anything. no awkward
silence: i know the man
as i know myself: i want
to tell him
it isn't
his fault.
07/16/2007 Posted on 07/16/2007 Copyright © 2024 Paul Marino
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