For a while I was numb and I wondered
If I had died or faded away. Thought all
Was gone except for the sensation of
Nothingness that ironically could be felt.
Now I am filled with yearning, for one thing.
My mind, body, heart all cry out in harmony.
Each manifests its need in ways that tingle
Along my synapses and cancel out the thought
Of nothing. Before I used a knife blade to feel
As though I was alive, now just the smallest
Thought of you will do for days, years, lifetimes.
I am obsessed, aroused, and, scared that the yearning
Will never be satiated and just grow worse with
Time until I am consumed and become like a
Drug addict just hunting for the next fix of you.

07/09/2007

Posted on 07/09/2007
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