I abdicate my bench on the High Court.
My seat was "good wife and all sacrificing mother"
I was never comfortable passing judgement on others anyway.
Now in my private practice, I am subject to judgement.

I am still me, only more so every day.
I am still Mommy, still friend, still athlete, still God's child.
There are parts of me that were hidden, but always there,
that are coming into light, and surprising those on the court.
I like having fun while remaining responsible.
(didn't think I could do that, did you?)

Now is the time to rediscover me.
The Suzy suppressed, silenced, and forgotten.
I will go on a trip overseas, to revisit a new place.
20 years ago I made this trip. Now is the time to return.
I will go on a trip and revisit my past,
Suzy hasn't been there in 20 years either.
Haunt the tombstones, buildings, cafés, and house
of my past life. I will gather up the lost pieces of me.

My petition for divorce is an unusual surprise.
Breaking free to fly without restraint,
to grow and flower, and be happy . . . selfish?
The high court's verdict is: Yes.
"you are selfish, you will fail and fall.
You can not live without your husband's management."

So I move out of your jurisdiction.
To a new place where many love the real me.
They know my faults, but don't see them as faults.
They believe in me, they know I am strong.
and they welcome me with open arms.

06/30/2007

Author's Note: "A woman without a man is like a fish without a bicycle" - unknown

Posted on 06/30/2007
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