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feeling in the technological age.

by Jared Fladeland

my heart is beating.
a cell-phone text message vibration.
In my chest.

it's one of two reasons I know I'm still alive.
the other is because i hunger for a depiction
of absolute suffering on a blank canvas,
or on top of a stage,
or played on a piano,
even danced in the air by a woman dressed in black.

As I attach myself to another person
through a breakdown of firewalls
and USB cords,
I know that I am still a human.

Because I have this reoccurring day dream
that I fall into a pool,
with all my clothes on,
and the water is warm, engulfing my soul,
and there is noise being played by speakers underneath
the surface of this man-made pond,
and it's not anything intelligible, no pop song
racing up the charts.
It's atmosphere, the music, and it is playing into my soul,
and I no longer have to breathe under water,
because in this state, I don't care if I die anymore,
because I'm happy, I have found what life is
in this drowning state.

As I turn up another random song from the list of thousands
on my "em pee three" player,
I know I'm alive,
because half the songs on my list depress the hell outta me.

05/24/2007

Posted on 05/25/2007
Copyright © 2024 Jared Fladeland

Member Comments on this Poem
Posted by Elizabeth Seago on 05/25/07 at 02:03 AM

:) This made me smile. + Favorites.

Posted by Katerina T Nix on 05/25/07 at 03:42 AM

Love it! I believe I know exactly what you mean. Well done :) -Kat oxo

Posted by A. Paige White on 05/25/07 at 07:26 AM

Hey! This fourth stanza sounds remarkably like your suggested prescription for my insomnia... lol.. Sweet Dreams sweetie! Thanks for stopping by to say howdy and the kind advice.

Posted by Michelle Angelini on 05/26/07 at 03:50 AM

Love what you said here. Isn't it incredible? I put over 250 songs on my em-pee-three and the blinking thing plays the same ones over and over again. Now that's cause for depression! But yes, it sure feels like I'm underwater when I'm tuned out to the rest of life and in my own groove.
~Chelle~

Posted by Kathleen Wilson on 05/26/07 at 07:30 AM

I love that you have incorporated the technological and the emotional... (of course you know how I love that!)... and blended it so well in this floating extension... this is really of our time and the way we connect, it captures "the vibration" that makes our hearts beat, and the musical responsiveness that spills over into our own mythology (your dream).

Posted by Alison McKenzie on 05/29/07 at 03:43 PM

I remember the beginning of this available technology, how interacting with strangers felt like some kind of sci-fi fantasy that wouldn't/couldn't translate to real life. Today, my partner is a man I met over 10 years ago in a book discussion chat room. This captures how technology DOES affect our every day lives. Excellent.

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